Jovizac

- II - I'm Rock.

2011-09-07T20:48:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i use english to write my blog post.
well, i just wanted to write this for quite sometime,
but after i had read some Comic,yes you've heard me, comic.
i now firm with my answer for you, my friends.

there's this rare chance i had a drink with my this new friends one to one due to some so call 'men's talk night'. but it turn out to be a lesson/educational session rather than a drinking night. and some certain part of it really gimme a big slap in my face, and hit me real hard. my confidence crumble as soon i left the pub, while i did went to seek my best friend for counseling after i left the pub, but she's just too busy till i have no chance to speak off.

i drill my head for all the thing that my friend told me, it's just keep whirl and spining in my head that come to this extend whatever i do, i did i felt it's crap and wrong. but in fact, I'm wrong that i think it's wrong....

well, undeniably, i would say some certain part of it is totally true and i'm totally agree to it, but that's the working and life part. i do give a big review on my job, career path, and behavior. and i'm trying to changing it, yall might not aware, but let's gimme a few year time and you'll see.

back to the part when you say i'm immature, and still behave and live like a youngster who is about 17-18 yrs old. YES, i'm, i admit that i'm immature. and YES, i love Jamming, i love ROCK this big family of music genre. but... after thinking for it quite sometime, it's not actually what's stopping me to grow up but instead it's something that push me forward from what i once am. if without it, yes, i might be a totally different good man or total worst ass-hole. but i'm glad it turn me to be who i'm now. i believe you too have your fav music to listen or stick with which will relief/express you from your emotion, maybe you never play a instrument or know nothing about jamming, but u're a artistic person too, you know the feeling. (or maybe you're just force to learn dance)

Rock music and jamming is something that my passion live within,
you might say it's something to Dream level for being my age still loving it.
but seriously what's the big deal of doing it?
you too drink, does it solve your problem? no, and neither do milk.
you too smoke, does it solve your problem? no, neither eating.
i'm pretty sure you've your own hobby and passion in life and you'll want to do it so much, perhaps like sex?
it's totally a pathetic IF you don't have one [i mean hobby].
i'm glad i had it, and i'm sad i'm not doing it much enough.

oh yeah, regarding Melvin, i don't think that he's being in love of DJ spining, scratching or mixing is waste of time. but i do felt sad that he don't have a proper job. yall might think he'll never make it, but did yall believing in he'll make it?(correct me if i'm wrong if yall did believe him). i never underestimate one who love their passion, hobby so much even if they fail big time and they're still doing it. this is what touch me lately.....

if you've never been at the bottom, you can't get to the top... if you've never been to the right, you can't go to the left... if you've never lost hope, you can't understand what is truly important...
---- Jim walsh

i'm impressed when you talk about those proposal you had done, i'm definitely not yet come to that business mind level yet. or would i say that's you pursue? that's really great thing to be, but you said it's not working forward as you can't find a invester. if you've spent so much time in drilling the project, i don't think it's that hard for you to find a invester, did you try?i believe it will turn out to be a great project, and i definitely will be one of your pioneer regular customer.

but hey man, i'm really really glad i have this session with you that night, you've open up yourself willing to talk to me that much ever. it hit me hard, and you youself have gimme a very good example what to learn, and what to not to be same like you.

thanks man.

i'm a person who love Rock music, to put it simple...
i will head banging to it until i unable to do so.
i will try to play or jam with whoever as long as there's same interest..
that's me, immature ? yes.
Rock FTW.

- I - 能重来吗？

2011-08-03T06:39:00.000-07:00

你是否愛過
你愛他多過他愛你的人你還記得嗎
你是否愛過
他有種真命天子般的人你還記得嗎

相愛以後終於分手
分手以後又想重來

如果能重來誠實的去對待
彼此都沒疑猜就沒有理由分開
如果能重來回憶當作塵埃
心不曾被傷害就能無瑕疵的愛
但是重來卻不能保證愛的成功或失敗
要重來多少次後才會明白

你是否愛過
讓你日夜忘不了的人你還記得嗎
我們曾愛過
不同種類不同面孔的人你記得哪個他

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重来，需要多大的勇气？当初的破裂，能重圆吗？
双方能接受吗？能原谅对方当时分开的抉择吗？
能坦然的对待吗？。。。

我想重来，但你想吗？
分开了一段时间，又再留下泪，感觉好奇怪。
分开了一段时间，才明白许多你当时的付出。
分开了一段时间，才了解，自己多么的无知。
后悔，是真的打从心底后悔。。。

如果能重来，你还会接受我吗？

- 0 - 重来

2011-07-14T19:01:00.000-07:00

这是第几次再一次部落大搬家了？我真的不记得了。
只记得好像每段感情结束后就得搬家一次，以为一切都会忘记，但却忘了我记得是因为我的心还记得，而不是这些表面的文字。

我和她将近五个月的感情，结束了。
我狠心地做出了这个决定。面对面说出了口，结束得非常难堪。对不起。如果在这样下去对你很不公平。
一切都是我的问题。

很对不起，这个决定伤了你。
但很感谢你，让我清楚了解，她为我的付出，守候，体谅，原谅，是多么的深。
而我却如此轻易的斩断，我真的很后悔。真的很后悔。
每当你对事情的反应，看法和做法我都会想起，如果是她，她一定会这么做，我都会偷偷的微笑起来。
每当你看着我说话的时候，我都会想起，她偶尔抛弃成人的一面，幼稚傻气的撒娇样子。
类似‘fuu,我怕怕哪~’， ‘hmm,很paiseh哪' 这些简单的一字一句，觉如此的浮现在我脑海里，反复的播放着。
每当你喝酒后的时候，我都会想起，她发酒疯让人摸不着头绪的一面。
每当你。。。我都会。。。每当你。。。我都会。。。。
所以我知道，这样继续下去，你会更伤。

但因为和你在一起，
让我知道她为我的付出是多么的大，我却一直看不清，
让我知道她对我的体谅是多么的宽，我却一直在滥用，
让我知道他对我的一切，都是由我开始，我却辜负了他。

很多时候，你对事情的看法，辩解，分析的确有你独特的一面，
但我却更喜欢她那种激励式的劝告，那种会细细聆听的性格。
其实你没有不好，只是很多生活上我们的见解需求都不一样，有时候我真的负担不了。
我如今还负担不了你这个责任，真的，不是你的问题，而是我真的负担不了。
真的很对不起，但如果在这样继续下去，我会更想他，而不是你。而我早在几个月前就一直很想念她了。

她，也许就如你所说的一样书呆呆，但毕竟我和她在一起三年，直到如今很多时候，我会告诉自己’如果她在她一定会这样。。。’然后就笑了起来。我和她的默契，又一定的地基。也许如今没有了。但我还是很想她。我甚至又冲动想跟她说我想你。

I小姐，如果你看到，我真的想直接跟你说，我想你！！！
我想念我们路边吃着一份RM3的早餐，
我想念我们一起炒菜煮饭的时光，
我想念我们到处拍照的时刻，
我想念我们天天喝酒的日子，
我想念你总是体谅我的任性，
我想念你从不对我有什么埋怨，
我想念我们一起攀爬十九楼的辛苦，
我想念我们穷到一直吃快熟面的日子，
我想念我们辛苦搬家的时间，
我想念我们什么都不用做只要有彼此就觉得幸福，
我想念。。。。我想念。。。我想念你。
但我却把一切都打破。。。。真的很对不起。
如果我说，让我们再重来。可以吗？
我有资格这么问吗？
你还会要我吗？