Monday, April 23, 2012

-III - 火。

每个人心中都应该有把象征着执着与热诚的火,
对人,对事,对物;
它应该是领导你走向未来,做自己,那么丁点存在于心中的光明。
但我发现我的火,逐渐消失着。
对人,对事,对物。
对人开始生疏,对事开始冷淡,对物开始厌倦;
从而渐渐失去了那么丁点光明的我,开始迷失方向。

我并不是一个容易对周围的人开启心房的人,
从而选择敷衍的沉默或傻笑逃过朋友的关心,
也许我并不喜欢一个人把我看的太透彻,
因为我太过于简单,肤浅,没什么底牌。
笑我傻吧,我只想周围的你们开心。

爱不是缺了就找,更不是没了就乱。
我会铭记在心,慢慢领悟。
害怕孤单寂寞的我,还是会想找人陪。
一个人其实没什么,就只不过是有太大的空间去胡思乱想。

好好地慢慢享受单身吧。。。

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

-II-乱写

在快乐或悲伤时,
我都想用文字来写下或发泄自己的情感。
但往往有的时候,写完了,却还搞不懂自己是快乐或悲伤。

“你看起来好累”
周围的朋友最近一直送给我的一句话。
看看镜子里的我,的确,黑眼圈从来没这么凸显过。
但是表面累,还是心累? 谁懂。

酒精并没舒缓忧伤,但却加速疲惫,
酒精永远只是选择逃避的最佳良伴。

也许你是对的,
爱不是缺了就找,更不是没了就乱。
所以我应该好好享受单身,别再陷入或拖累她人了。

梁静茹有首歌“慢慢来比较快”。
那就慢慢来吧。大家都需要时间去释怀。
我懂,你懂,她懂。

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

- I - feeling...

it is hard to have a truth feeling to someone,
and it is harder let go someone you had feeling to.

'do you miss him?' what a question with full of stupidity and sincerity.
who am i deserve to ask, or even mention this question,
that once or twice he bring tons of tragic, sadness, heart broken to you.
but i just care. i use a most immature way trying to ask you,
by any mean, by any seconds... 'do i ever cross you mind?'

i keep telling myself i don't wanna mess this things up,
i keep thinking i'm able to take it slow.
but i just can't help my feeling, it's there, it's overwhelming the weight in my heart.
i just can't help myself.

i miss you, badly.
did you ever have the same feeling as i?.